A Glimpse into our Autism: Forgotten

Dear son,

Yesterday I spoke with your teacher. She told me about your struggle. A problem that I knew nothing about...

How did I miss this, my big hearted boy? How did I miss that you were feeling confused, worried, anxious about autism.

The thought of your face at the classroom window, searching the playground to check your brother is OK, tears at my heart...

Did I forget you my beautiful boy?

Two hands holding jigsaw pieces together




Was my attention too keenly focused on supporting your big brother and not enough on you?

I am sorry I didn't notice, I didn't see...

I have always been so proud of your relationship with your brother, your closeness and the joy that you share in just being together.

Butterfly with coloured jigsaw pieces pattern with textWe have never hidden his autism but maybe now it is time to explain.

You know your brother is different but can't explain why. You know the word Autism but not what that means.

The problem is that I don't want you to look at him with different eyes.

But it is time to fill in the missing dots...

You must not bear the weight of your brother's disability, ever...

I don't want to be haunted by the image of your face at the window.

Yesterday I spoke with your teacher. She told me about your struggle. A problem that I knew nothing about...

How did I forget 'you'?


For help and support for Siblings of children with a disability see the Sibs website.

A glimpse into autism is a series of short letters that explore how autism effects us on a day to day basis. Disclaimer:  this is our experience not all autistic people are the same.





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